Unsaid

Time 4:05 pm . Still an hour to go Sherin thought. “She’d be late . I better cook something”.

Tingtong . Normal Indian bells are so, gives a horrible sound. Sherin startled. But controlled herself . Corrected her churidaar and opened the door.

“ Aah dear u are early. . Class over  aa??” sherin moved the curtain.

“hmm you don’t have anything else when someone is on door?” Anu pushed her and moved in.

“podi, rest in u must be tired. Want some coffee???”

“Why do u ask that every day when u know I like Tea??”

Sherin smiled “I want to hear that answer every time . It gives me a feeling that you are here with me always”

Anu seating herself in off-white cushioned  sofa..bumping up and down “okay okay enough of your philosophy tell me what did u cook today for your hubby”

“sambhar, Often an answer of a so called Mallu wife”

Anu gasped “Sambhar..?? do you even know how to make it?”

“What you thought I am I know .. not well but a little better than nothing.. u want recipe?” Quiet hesitant but Sherin asked it.Knowing the fact she is not that at kitchen. She knows that Anu knows it . But still Image is always an issue. She never wants to be defeated in front of her , knowing the fact that she is nothing in front of her.

Let me tell you about these two girls. Friends from college. Better you say Hostelmates. Fights do occur but as many other friends they cared about each other. Anu is not much expressive whereas Sherin is too expressive of her kind. Sherin knows how much Anu likes her. As I said before Sherin wont let her go in front of her despite of knowing the fact that Anu knows her charectar very well. On other hand Anu let Sherin go. Because she liked her spirit.. but sometimes she gets irritated by Sherin’s behavior.  She believed in sherin’s attitude not always but  Supported her whenever a hand was required. Anu had felt the care Sherin applies on her. But did not like her Loud nature.

Back to the scene

“well I have to ask something you have to answer me truthly”  Sherin said..

“I know cooking well dear u can ask me doubt yeah !!” Flying her fingers to give an impression

“podi, not cooking  something else. It’s a confusion of mind. I will tell u a situation u have to answer me”

“not again you are going to confuse me wid your philosophical thoughts??” Anu was quiet tensed.

My God what is she going to ask. Will it be much personal? What happened to this girl? She is disturbed  from few days. Hope everything s well with her. She is not looking at me also. Some problem for sure.. but let me see    ….. Randomised thoughts were moving through anu’s mind

“no no its just a situation u have to answer me that’s all” Moving  towards  the big bright window Sherin Gaze into her thoughts.

Will she be able to think the way I want to tell? Can she feel the necessity of mine to get that answer. Is she sensing the sorrow or behavioral change in me. Will she think I am mad  or a desperate person? But she is my friend rite . She listens to me. Hopefully she wont mind.

“hellllo… daydreamer… I am alive” Anu shouted.

“yes yes I will say “ awaken from her thoughts Sherin moves toward sofa .

“k then start”

“Its like a situation in which there are friends love and some tension. Okay. Ummmm.. okay lets make it more visual . You and me are friends  rite”

Yeah

“now when  your Boyfriend I mean lover Bobo is there. He becomes more important than me  Right?”

“Its obvious ,, but what are u trying to say” Anu seemed much confused.

“now the real situation comes. You got to know a thing about him. Kind of a thing in his past. Which hurted you a lot . which is kind of not good. But u are so tensed about it . So will u share it with me? But remember  Bobo is  a friend of mine too .Wil u say?”

“I don’t know any secrets of his.. then how will I say?”

“aaah anu I just asked you to imagine…”

“oh in that case I may share..”

“So u will share Anu? U will share that side of bobo to me?? You will not think that his image in my eyes will be changed?”

“don’t know yaar.. I may not share.. You know Bobo right.. Will he do anything like that?”

“Anu u are getting into reality I was just asking an imaginary situation”

“I understood but you know he loves me a lot and so do I .. Sheri we are getting married so its getting hard for me to answer such question but still you answer will be I won’t say. Yes that’s it I Won’t say”

“why dear why u will not say ?”

“see  sometimes we feel to share it with someone , sometime we may not . It all depends “

“Anu I understand that but what if it relaxes your mind ? You are so desperate within yourself. You know that you want it to be free. You are suffocated in then will you .Will you share it with me?”

“In that case I wil share .” Anu said it.

“hmm so you will share it Anu  so for u His image does not matter?? What you think Anu when u would have told me about this With which eyes will I see him huh? “ Sherin was getting more deep. Eyes wide open as if she was trying to narrate her own situation “you will share it huh ?? then what about the love he…”

“Will u shut your mouth” Anu irrupted her words Quiet frustrated. “don’t make me confused Sherin  Why are u posting such questions on me. Is that you have to say something to me”

Anu had got her Sherin needed to shift. Making a fake laugh she said “ Dear I am making a story  that’s why. I just want you to answer my question  that’s all”

“You and your stories will make me mad Sherin “

With a smile Sherin retreats knowing that Anu has been misguided from the topic. She serves her Tea. And then some normal chitchats Anu was ready to takeoff.

“so I will get you tomorrow Sherin. Bye dear take care”

“sure my love take care. Bye” Presenting a sweet smile Sherin closes the door.

While climbing down the stairs Anu has amble number of thoughts swirling in her mind . Too many of  questions  “Will Bobo do such thing to me? No.. He wont .. But even if he does Will I ? Really say???Then what about the trust he holds on me. He would have said it with love. How can I ? Just Because  I am suffocated? Just because of my own need will I ever disrespect his image he has in other’s eyes? How can i say I am going to be his wife. A wife’s duty is to hide it no matter whatever it is… but then what about me…??? AAAAAH this is so confusing. Let me leave it here. Its nothing in my life Its just imagination .. Its not true Its not true.. huff…

“Taxi …” Anu calls out .

Watching  Anu moving inside the Taxi Sherin gazes apart to the building next to her. Mind is all well tensed and require some fresh air to breathe. She looks into the nest with two little babies of Pigeon snuggles around their mom. And the mother Pigeon always does this whenever Sherin is around.

With a smile Sherin moves into the kitchen “ I know the answer . Like as pigeon did, but did Anu understood her friend which was unsaid?”