When i crossed my limit of Patience ... written few months before this date

Don't tell me not to be angry
Don't tell me not to cry
You have given me enough shame for to live on
Whom else should i blame
Waren't you my friend who uphold-ed me
Aren't you suppose to wash my tears away
Why is that i wear a smile when my heart can't stop crying.
Have not i been faithful to you?
Have not i shown enough patience?
Enough of tears, Enough of Patience
Give me back that you took away from me.
I dont want to be called barren.
Give me back my name.
I was called a blessing from you.
Don't change  my name to any curse.
I am tired of mocking , tired of sorrow
You have to give my gift back.
You have to give me my child.
Dont think i will keep mum this time.
You made me LOUD and i will be LOUD  and CLEAR this time.
Give me my blessing or I won't spare you.
I am on my knees praying, Deliver me my child. Please